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Thursday, August 6, 2009
~ 8:46 PM ~
ROAR!!!
early book out this week
so i should hav felt happy?
but i'm not....
SIT test this week
was 'suffering' from some unknown illness
this week i keep geeting exhuasted easily
vomiting and feeling giddy and sweating v heavily jus after a short run
and i endured this through SIT test
where we hav to run and climb...........
the day after SIT which is 2day....
jus a normal 5BX
and i'm almost vomiting when i normally dun even sweat while doing it
guess it was kind of serious?
and i hav being quite a burden to my section and platoon mates
making them worried abt me and helping me even when they r in help.....
i felt so useless......
and so finally i decided to go see MO (medical officer)
even he do not noe watz wrong with me and told me tt highly therez a chance tt there is a problem with my heart and he suddenly asked me 'does ur family history hav someone dying suddenly?'
1st thing in my mind was WTF is wrong with me? will i down pes? will i OOT?
he gav me a excuse PT for 1 month and i tot i was gonna OOT.....
i was refered to CGH for further check up....
ECG.... X-RAY.....
finally the doc say so far there is nothing wrong.......
could be due to low heart rate was my heart rate was v low 2day......
but jus in case... he made an appointment with a heart specalist for me....
and gav me an MC for this week....
haiz long weekend..........
1st time booking out alone (with raven coy actually)....
the feeling sux....
Y? Y does this hav to happen to me?
of all thing?
how much worst can my life get?
now i cant go command sch...
no more physical training....
no more lossing weight
no more IPPT.....
this sux....
sux to the core.....
i'm so sick of this life..........
sick of this body.....
sick of myself.........
i sux........
about me
; name: Alfred Lim Meng Hao aka Devil89
; school: Kong Hwa School P1,2,3/4, P4,5,6/5, MacPherson Secondary School 1,2,3,4A, Temasek Polytechnic AF12,AF22,AF32
; cca: Pri Sch: Environmetal Club, Sec Sch: NPCC, BasketBall, Poly: Applied Science Studies Club, TPBP Mentoring
; horoscope: Capricorn
; birthday: 02/01/1989
; Hobbies: BasketBall, Computer Games
; WishList: - LA Lakers no. 24 jersey
- NIKE Black/Gold/Purple Zoom Kobe V BasketBall Shoes
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